A Cathartic Remembrance (2017)
       
     
A Shared Memory
       
     
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She's Gone
       
     
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"Her life was just beginning"
       
     
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If I could only go numb
       
     
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"I couldn't let go. I couldn't let her go."
       
     
I watched one end and another begin.
       
     
"Now knowing what the smell of blood is"
       
     
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"Without her"
       
     
There are so many
       
     
"As his blood drained out, so did his faith"
       
     
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The Remnants of A Cathartic Remembrance
       
     
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A Cathartic Remembrance (2017)
       
     
A Cathartic Remembrance (2017)

A Cathartic Remembrance exmaines grief and its distorting effect on memory. This project was born out of a desire to address my grief and visually represent the memories that engulfed my conscious. This work demonstrates my attempt at recovery, and allows me to express rather than suppress my grief; my art is my catharsis. 

In creating this work I revisited my own narrative and expanded upon it through a series of interview-like interactions called the prompted listening sessions. In these sessions I developed a more nuanced understanding of grief by contextualizing my own experience with respect to various members of my family. Notes from the listening sessions can be found in the artist book A Shared Memory. 

A Shared Memory
       
     
A Shared Memory

Mixed media on Stonehenge paper, 10" x 7 1/8" x 1"

In creating this work, I revisited my own narrative and expanded upon it through a series of interview-like interactions called, "The Prompted Listening Sessions." In these sessions I developed a more nuanced understanding of grief by contextualizing my own experience with respect to various members of my family. Notes from the sessions, and sketches inspired by them, can be found in this book. These notes and sketeches became foder for many of the paintings in this series. 

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Sample spreads.

Sketchbook 18.jpeg
       
     
She's Gone
       
     
She's Gone

Oil on canvas, variable size approx. 32 ¼" x 38 ¾"

This piece and the other damaged canvases are reflective of my attempts to rip each experience from memory, and the frustration with the memory’s refusal to fade. The canvases and their stretchers break under the stress of my efforts to render the memory, collapsing under grief’s weight like my mental stability. Within A Cathartic Remembrance, I attempt to articulate my mental angst and find the closure that was lacking when grief struck.

 

 

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"Her life was just beginning"
       
     
"Her life was just beginning"

Oil on canvas, dimensions vary by installation approx. 38" x 42"

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If I could only go numb
       
     
If I could only go numb

Oil on canvas, 42 1/2" x 54"

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"I couldn't let go. I couldn't let her go."
       
     
"I couldn't let go. I couldn't let her go."

Oil on canvas, 33 7/8" x 44 1/2" 

I watched one end and another begin.
       
     
I watched one end and another begin.

Oil on canvas, 41 1/2" x 53 3/4"

"Now knowing what the smell of blood is"
       
     
"Now knowing what the smell of blood is"

Oil on canvas, 45" x 60 1/2" 

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"Without her"
       
     
"Without her"

Oil on canvas, 49 ½" x 56 ½ "

 

There are so many
       
     
There are so many

Oil on canvas, 35"x60 1/2"

 

"As his blood drained out, so did his faith"
       
     
"As his blood drained out, so did his faith"

Oil on canvas, 31 1/4" x 42 3/4" 

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The Remnants of A Cathartic Remembrance
       
     
The Remnants of A Cathartic Remembrance

3" x 7" x 9"

Oil and laser engraving on canvas, coptic binding

Following the completion of my Honors thesis I gathered various canvases from the series and cut them to form this book. I felt that the original canvases had served their cathartic purpose, and now they could gain new life by being reworked a final time. Where the original canvases were large and overwhelming, this book is small, intimate, and allows for a more personal experience with the paintings. In being able to hold this work, viewers are able to touch the paintings, developing a new appreciation for mark making and texture. Taking note of the agitated mark making allows for an understanding the emotions felt during each work's creation.

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Sample spreads.

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