My work addresses grief, the ephemeral nature of memory, and obsessive attempts to control this impermanence in the wake of death. I reevaluate my own history and encounters with loss to consider the transient nature of memory. In the aftermath of grief there is often a desire to forget, but simultaneously a desperate need to cling to the memories of the deceased. The duality between these two actions intrigues me. I consider how memories emerge as patterns during the process of mourning, transforming them into sequential narratives in an attempt to understand and move toward acceptance.
Repetition is an important aspect of my work as it references the cyclical nature of grief and the compulsive need to conjure the presence of those who are gone. For this reason, I pursue book, print, and paper processes, as they allow me to evaluate the same experiences and encounters through multiple lenses. I use dirt as a metaphor for the various burdens that we carry because of its ubiquitous nature and connections to life and death. Dirt is necessary for sustaining natural growth and yet it also contains decay, assisting in the process of deterioration. The dichotomy present here resembles that of the mourning process, and this connection allows me to highlight the conflict between remembering and forgetting.